Bouncing in all ways

The best thing I can do when feeling low is to surround myself with uplifting and positive people, places and things. So having posted a less than positive message last Saturday I gave myself a stiff talking to, packed a bag (yes loads of shoes..) and headed South West.
Watching the landscape become full of rolling hills, lush green fields and woods I began to feel so much better, oh and not forgetting being able to harmonise at maximum decibels to every CD I put on............

Surrounded by Roman Forts, Norman Churches, local made ice cream, Open Garden Day events and hill walks, I sat on a bench with a special friend overlooking the Severn estuary and kicked started myself once again. The best thing I can do right now, with diminishing time, is to buy a bike to practice on in the UK. So this week I shall be busy with that very task.

I only have one question: why is it that my voice only works in the car and the shower........???!!

A World of Difference

One of the great things about being 'me' is my 'highs'....! They are exciting, invigorating, intoxicating and some may say, fun to be around. There are times mind you when I would love to be moderate, you know middle of the road and temperate. Why? Because I wouldn't experience such lows that can knock me for six.
Last night I was awash with fear and this morning ain't no better! I am having a panic about being able to pass my unrestricted bike test in time for the trip. Pressure. I know that I can ride the bike, Karen will testify to that, thing is I've gone backwards and I'm not sure why. I fell off a ER5 (big bike to those not in the know!) yesterday. At the end of a botched U turn. It was entirely my fault and I was furious with myself. Believe me, no one can be harder on me than me when I make mistakes!
I understand that the problem is mostly in my head and I am struggling to overcome it. Any tips gratefully received...!
I say mostly as I am vertically challenged and actually have difficulty reaching the floor on a big bike and still have a fear of not being in control of the damn thing.
Solutions I can see this morning:
Do it on a 125cc as it will give me a full bike licence, albeit restricted. Will that be a problem in th US?
Do the test in the US. Apparently much easier, more like our CBT.
Do it in a car...
Go with people...
Hide for 3 months.........
Go back to bed.........
Good grief I'm annoying myself now. Well I did say that you would see the good AND the bad.

The Lost Weekend

Thank you to all who joined me on Friday night to set me off to pastures new. Things got more than a little hazy towards the end.....
Eeek, I hope I didn't do the group hug and 'I love you bro' moment............
I will keep in touch with all of you, one way or another and trust that you will work out how to use the message board and post lots of thoughts and ideas. These will be a major support to me, particularly when I am in the States.
So now I am a new member of the ranks of the unemployed I'll adapt as best as I can, still in pj's and it's nearly midday, not bad start eh! What's next, oooh yeah, daytime tv, mmmm, can't wait........

New beginnings....

Okay the day is upon me, just over an hour to go and I'll be unemployed..... Now feeling a wave of panic. Is this all wise. Perhaps another glass of Bolly will help.......

Karen passed her bike test yesterday!!! I'm sooooo pleased and proud. I'm looking forward to us getting on our bikes and riding away from it all for a day. Okay okay, I know, I need to pass my test.....

Monday will find me up at 6am as usual but schlepping (?) around in my comfy pj's til at least 9am (what a Devil eh?!) and then it's off to find a Training school to redo my test. I WILL do it

K9 I am having a major panic about the Manolo's. So seriously that sitting here in the kitchen of my soon to be ex employer I am thinking that a car sounds a far easier option. Perhaps if I have a soft top it might be a suitable compromise................

Nah, not at all, will keep on and find a way round it that I can still take at least one pair of Manolo's or Stuart Wietzmans..................

It's mixed emotions for me today, little sad to be moving on from the people here at work but excited about the new beginnings. No doubt a few tears will be spilling into the several drinks I'm likely to partake of shortly. Karen is coming to my rescue again and is driving me home. Does she realise she'll have to bundle me out of the car, roll me into the house so I can collapse in a heap.

Down but not out.

The Site is getting closer to completion and the whole process is quite facinating and enjoyable. Enjoyable however is not how I would describe the falling off of a little 125 cc bike the other weekend..... Dearsay there'll be a few more of those before I reach my goal.....I shall be leaving Linden Homes employ on Friday this week and will be devoting all my time to setting up the trip and actually getting my bike test passed, small detail really eh??!So come on you lot, I am going to be in need of lots of advice and support, so get writing and spur me on.................